Lost.....

Life sometimes throws things at you that you just have to deal with, other times it throws something at you that will change everything completely, make you look at things completely different. Sometimes life will be your worst enemy, it will chuck something at you that is completely to big for you to handle, and leaves you feeling like your floating into nothingness. Life has just chucked me YET another thing to handle and this one i am not completely sure i can, when does life give you a break?

I'm sorry about the doom and gloom, but i am struggling to see the light in this one my friends, and i am completely lost on how to tackle it, i feel like every time something brightens up in my life, something shortly after will surround it in darkness. I'm left thinking what do i do? How do i deal with this? Truth is i don't think i can.

This Thing Called Love............

I think the most important thing about love is to learn to love yourself, if you can't do this then how can you really love anyone else? A saying i really like is "love like you won't get hurt", i have no idea where i have heard this but its always stuck in my head. I think at the moment there is to many people out there looking for love, and i can probably guarantee that you will never find it, it will find you. We are young, these years are meant to be for enjoying our lives, not wasting time chasing boys around. Don't get me wrong i would absolutely LOVE a boyfriend right now, but in all honesty its not my main priority, if you need a man to be happy then your clearly not ready to love someone. 

Moving on because it sounds like im hating on love which im really not, there is no better feeling in the world than to know that you are loved, it makes you feel like you've got a million butterfly's in your tummy, waiting to burst out, it makes you happy, it makes you feel like your the only person in the world, it makes you feel that no mountain is to high for you to conquer.

But there is so many different kinds of love, you have love for your family, which i believe is the most special, especially the love between a mother and their children, that love is truly unconditional, never ending, strong and no matter what it can not be beaten. You have the love for friends, which in some cases can last a lifetime. You have love for your pets, which again is a crazily strong bond. Love is everywhere you look, even in shop displays someone has put that display on of something they love whatever it may be, love is passion. 

So to conclude

I LOVE YOU

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O So You Wanna Talk About My Mother!!!

My mummy, Trina Williams is my biggest inspiration. I really don't know where to start on telling you how amazing my mum actually is, i have a big respect for all mums out there but there's just something special about my mum. She isn't your conventional mum, who cleans up after you, pays for everything for you, she has brought me up to work for the things i want in life because nothing comes free, when i was younger we hardly ever had money, but mum being the amazing woman she is made the best of what we had, and admittedly those times with less money were the happiest days of our lives, we smiled, we laughed and nothing could ever phase us. I think from them happy times me and my mum formed a bond that helped us get through all my problems, i mean i would be selfish if i just thought it was me going through it all, something i am incredibly sorry for is not realizing what i put my mum through, and ive only just recently realized how it affected my mum, after all she is the only one that truly stuck by me through the bad times and sometimes it did get pretty dark but we always made it through, something she helped me realize was that you dont need a big family to be happy :) My mum is my biggest fan, and has always wanted me to push me further to better myself, and i finally have by going to study performing arts in college, my mum would come to all my shows and she would be the one you would hear in the audience, "I LOVE YOU MARC" whistling the lot it was amazing :) I think me and my mum are connected on a completely different level to other mum's and son's, without me telling her she will no if im sad, and ill know if she is without saying, i like to think of us as best friends, i love sharing my world with my mum, and i know its going to get so much more exciting. I know im gonna make it big one day and i know my mums going to be there every step of the way with me, to be honest i wouldn't want anyone else there with me :D I don't live with my mum no more, and there are times when i just cry because i miss her that much, i think it upset me that my dreams have been planted, and now they are slowly going to grow, and i cant come home from college and tell her all about my day, but despite all this she is still here, even if it is just a phone call. My mum gets frustrated when she tells people about my talent because no one really has seen me, but i can say now that everyone will see me one day mum!!! My biggest ambition is to make my mum proud, and so far i have, she put this status up after she found out i was starting back at college. "Is VERY proud of both of my sons, Matthew starts college in September to do nursing and Marc starts college in September to do performing arts. I'm also very proud of myself for bringing up 2 fantastic and talented son. GO ME :-)" Not gonna lie it made me cry, because after all the rubbish ive gone through with my mum, ive finally done something to make her proud :) so go me :)

My mums such a funny woman, she's smart, kind, and friggin gorgeous, i love my mum crazy amounts, even if she does steal my dance moves :P haha god you should see us on a night out together, im wandering off god knows where and she's walking round shouting "where's my gay boy!!" and then we dance exactly the same its soooooo funny :) What also makes me extremely happy is that she has someone that makes her truly happy :D its amazing to see her smiling and laughing all the time, and i truly believe she has met the one she can spend her whole life with, he is truly an amazing man, so kind hearted and thoughtful, i couldnt of wished for anyone better to be with my mum, and ive adopted him as my surrogate dad, because when my dad decided he didnt want to be in my life, he stepped in, when my dad didnt get me anything for christmas roger got me driving lessons, i honestly think of him as my dad now.

So i think ive kinda blabbed on a bit but a short paragraph could not some up how amazing my mum is, so on that note mum id like to say thank you for everything you've done for me (which is a lot) i am eternally great full for it all. I love you so much mum and i can not wait for us to go on this journey, it going to be a hard one but it will be so worth it :D

Love to all

Marc Anthony Scott

xx 

Another Gay Thought Before Bed :)

Once again i find myself sitting here thinking about the world :) But tonight my friends i have decided to write a very special blog expressing my love for Mr Penguin :)


So lets start on how me and Mr Penguin met :) I was casually taking a stroll in Antarctica when i saw a WHsmiths so i thought "o to the m geeeeee, i need a willy warmer", so i went in had a good old look around looking at DICtionarys and shizzle when i suddenly felt this cold shiver down my spine, i looked over yonder book store, and there he was sat in the sale basket, i couldnt take my eyes off him, i immediately fell in love with him, all of a sudden this cheesy romantic music came on and i found myself dancing with a penguin...........It was a very surreal situation and ever since that day he has stuck by me through everything, the cold winter nights id be cuddling him :) Who needs a man to complete your life when i have Mr penguin!!!!


This halloween in honor of my beloved penguin i shall be dressing up as one :) Im not gonna lie, ive been in some right states with mr penguin hes a right party animal ;)


So my final thought before bed is that your never to old to have teddys :) After all you have to hold onto part of your childhood otherwise life would be boring and no fun at all :)


Just to clear things up, i do not make love to my teddy, i just have a lot of love for him <3


sweet dreams all <3


Love you 


Marc Anthony Scott <3

Just a Gay Thought Before Bed :)

I absolutely love the time period of when you go to bed, and when you fall asleep. I believe these times are crucial for everyone to reflect on everything that has happened in the day, or even give you time to reflect on past times or even mistakes you may have made. So i cant promise ill do it every night but ill most certainly try and do it most nights with a different subject........so here it goes :)


My final thought of the night is....................(drum roll please)................................. To not waste amazing opportunities, this is kinda one that everyone can relate to, but i personally have done my fair share of wasting amazing opportunities. I went to London and had a modelling shoot, i just let that go, I've applied for the x-factor countless years but i never went for it, and if i am completely honest now I've started to doubt whether or not i want to carry on at college (before everyone starts going crazy im not giving up don't worry let me explain myself) Now look at it this way, i don't live with my mum, so i have all the independent living worries on my shoulders, rent, gas, electric,phone bills the lot, and i currently have no income, so i found myself thinking to myself, "Marc be realistic just give up and get a job." But then there's always this fire inside me constantly burning always wanting more, i KNOW i have talent and i KNOW i can do anything if i put everything into it so this is the reason i am not giving up, if you have nothing in life to fight for, then whats the point in living!! I'm fighting for my dreams now and college for me is a platform to greater things, i just got to keep focused and keep my eye on the prize :)


So, Just a gay thought before bed, if you want something that bad that you are willing to loose everything for it, don't give up keep fighting and keep that fire burning <3


Love you all


Marc Anthony Scott <3

Welcome To Me and My Life :)

I think a good place to start is always the beginning, but bare with me i have a tendency to be telling one thing and then jump straight onto the next, i want my blog to be raw and i want it to be like im actually talking to you in person :) So here it goes.........


I was born on the 23rd of November back in good old 1991, and spent the first few years of my childhood living in the lovely village that is kirklington, my family was small but cosy it consisted of me, my mum, my dad and my elder brother. We lived in a proper old village house that apparently was 'haunted' but obviously i was to young to remember such things, i do remember it was quite a dark and dingy house but it was home, IT HAD A REAL FIRE which i absolutely LOVED!!! Anyway about 2 doors down there lived one of the greatest woman that will ever enter my life, my Annie Gran :) She was a proper proper gran, she made tea in a tea pot with a tea cosy on, made THE BEST sunday lunches!!! real yorkie puds the lot she was a god in my eyes growing up. ill tell you a bit more about her later on :) I think when i was three or four my mum and dad got divorced, which to be honest i dont think it effected me that much, we moved to a place called catterick garrison, we moved into a little bungalow, just me my mum and brother, the memories from this house are the best memories in the world, we lived next door to one of my mums old friends, and she had a daughter, who later became to be like my sister and me, Matthew (my brother) and Alex were all brought up together by our two amazing mums. We would have the best halloween parties, the house would get decorated every year probably more decorated than we would at Christmas, we would do all the crazy and messy games after going trick or treating :) and the food was amazing, our mums would put food dye in all the food so we'd end up with pink mash and green spaghetti it was amazing!! In these times we hardly had any money, but i believe these times to be the best in my life, there were no complications, life was easy and all i remember is laughter and smiling, there was never a dull moment :) (im blabbing again but i hope your enjoying it)


I've always known i was gay from as early as i can remember, i just had a bit of a difficult time coming to terms with it, as most of us probably do, my troubles started in secondary school where a young, effeminate marc plodded along (i was a bit chubby) and instantly everyone knew i was GAY i just ignored it kept quiet, but with all that going on i had an amazing big group of friends :) i met my best friend in the world there, the lovely and gorgeous Miss Katy'Jay Rook <3 Anyway im about to get all deep and emotional here now so be prepared haha........ So with all this fighting my sexuality etc i became very depressed and started to have serious body issues which resulted in me becoming very ill and my whole life then revolved around food (which might i add was a scary place to be at that time) i ended up having to go to a place called limetree's which TBH was a fucking awful place that only made me worse, i actually came out when i was there :D so something good did come along with that place, anyway came out of limetree's got worse then somehow this inner strength came out and i gradually started getting better :) In the time of me coming out and being really ill my FATHER decided to do a runner because he didnt know how to handle things, not gonna go on about him he's not worth my time :)


So that a bit about my past lets bring it to the present..................


Im now living in leeds with the most amazing people in the world BIG SHOUT OUT TO MY MANDEMZ!!! so yeah im studying performing arts and i one day hope to be a massive STAR!!!!! which to be honest i know i will one day :) I love all my friends to bits, the family that i have are amazing, and things are finally going my way :)


Performing arts for me is my biggest passion in life, im so happy when im either singing dancing or acting, its like my escape from the real world, im really passionate about what i do and i think to make it big you have to believe you will get there, which i do :) So watch this space ;)


Im actually just recovering from dying from he flu, i had it a week for god sake haha!! But im on the mend :)


Im gonna leave it there for now, And ill try update my blog once a week of whats going on in my life, or ill waffle on about somethings thats bugging me, ill to keep it about one subject at a time, this ones my first so im allowed to do what i want :P


One thing for certain is, my blog will be honest, real and Marc Anthony Scott :) Love to all :D <3